7th April 2017
My name is Natalina and I am a 27 year old wife and mum of two young children. I live in the UK and I am currently an inpatient at the Bethlem Royal hospital on the eating disorder unit. I have suffered from anorexia and bulimia (and several other mental illnesses) for nearly 20 years now as a result of a rocky start to life. After several admissions to this unit I am finally proud to say, I am at the start of the long road to recovery. After many years of resisting treatment, I am now in a place mentally to accept and want the help I need.
I feel there are many misconceptions about eating disorders; often portrayed in the media as “a choice” and something “glamorous”. These views couldn’t be further from the truth. There are so many stigmas attached to eating disorders and a lot of ignorance surrounding it. There are many people who are unaware of just how dangerous and damaging eating disorders are, not only to the sufferer but also to the loved ones around them.
As a “healthy” way of handling and expressing my emotions, I have for many years written poems. These poems are very personal to me and are usually kept secret from even those closest to me.
More recently, I decided that as a way to try and build awareness and show people suffering that they are not alone, I am sharing some of my writing. Although each individual case is different, these are my experiences and really hope they can help others in some way.
My enemy, My friend is the poem I chose to share with the users of Seed.